Friday Night Blues

After spending over an hour crying and hating my job and being offended by a close friend I finally got home. All I wanted was to curl up in bed and never get up. Well, this is the face that greeted me.


Nothing like sloppy, happy kisses from this innocent face to make me feel better :)

Not only that but we got to watch the Memorial Day fireworks from our backyard.

Living the Dream

I spent this past weekend at home with family and, despite occasional storms and a probable tornado, I think we spent more time outside than inside the entire weekend. Saturday we were up at dawn for the farmer's market and the grocery then came home to play in the yard and pool until the sun set. Sunday we were up for church and stayed outside again until sunset. Sunday, while sitting on a fence and overlooking the property lit up with golden sunlight and waving in cool, fierce winds, I reminded my sister of how earlier in the week she had mentioned how much she loved her new home. It was during that sunset on the fence, with the kids playing and laughing in the trampoline, the three dogs wrestling in the yard, and my wonderful sister beside me, that everything clicked for me.

I realized how true her words were about loving her home. It was like living the dream. I was so content that weekend that it just filled me with warm fuzzies. I was welcomed into a home that will eventually become my actual temporary home in a month, treated as family, and spent time just playing, hanging out, and admiring what we had. It wasn't just a house anymore. Ever since we moved I haven't really had a 'home'. I've mentioned it before on this blog how I often lack a true 'home'. Well, on Sunday I found my home. It was with my family, with a sister who does everything she can to help me, a brother-in-law who humors me, and nephews and nieces who still think I am awesome despite the occasional embarrassing moment. I was finally home.

Even today when the sun is missing and homework and finances loom overhead I couldn't shake those fuzzies. Summer has me caught in its embrace and I'm simply in love with life. I have a job, classes that I enjoy, time to read, write, and watch movies, a family who loves me, friends who are hilarious, and a dog who thinks I couldn't be any cooler if I tried. I've been dreaming of this time for months, years even. When it dawned on me that it was here, I felt so much stronger religiously, emotionally, and mentally that I actually cried. All those prayers were answered. The time I so desperately begged for has come. Now it's here and I'm soaking in the wonder and beauty of what God has blessed me with.

Into the Wildness

In some primitive cultures every person within a tribe is valuable and plays a part for their tribesmen. Each person has a role and that role keeps the tribe running smoothly. If someone cannot fulfill their role they are raised to recognize so and change it. This is most common with the elderly or terminally ill people.

If a person within the tribe grows too old or suffers an illness that prevents them from assisting their tribesmen in the survival of the village, they will take it upon themselves to designate a day to convene with the tribe and say their farewells. When that day comes they say goodbye the last time and walk into the wilderness without friend or foe, food or supplies.

Into the desert, forest, plains, jungle they go, in hopes of rejoining their creator and the mother earth in a way as tender and natural as how they were brought into the world. There is perhaps no greater way of dying than to reintegrate with the world around them and pass into God's hands in the wildness of the untamed world.

Kindly Reminder

I got call today about a job I'm pursuing in Greenwood where I'll moving to. I'm going in for a second interview on Friday. The downside is I was supposed to leave at 12 on Friday. Now I have to leave probably around 4. That's 4 hours I don't get to spend with the family.

I just need to remind myself that this means I am one step closer to finding a good job! I'll just repeat that to myself until Friday comes.

Summer Storms

While knocking out some chores today, I quickly saw that the horizon was getting dark. Indy and I rushed home and I headed out to the grocery in hopes of beating the storm. I didn't make it.

This was about 15 minutes after the rain stopped. I had to run inside and put away frozen groceries before I had the chance to get my camera and take pictures. This street is still entirely flooded at the end. My street was flooded for a few minutes.


This hail was about thumb sized. From what I heard, we didn't get it as bad as some places but it was still pretty nasty. There were a couple wrecks on Scatterfield because of people refusing to slow down while the hardest of it came down. Just another day in paradise (Indiana) I guess!

Ch-Ch-Changes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WdmzCN6Kshs
That movie clip is pretty much how I feel as summer approaches and winter is left behind.

In the past week, there's been more going on than I can keep track of. Lucky for me, I don't sleep well under stress and now have time to update my blog between appointments. I finished up all my responsibilities this week as a Student Teacher. I presented my Student Teacher Presentation yesterday (it's given in front of my colleagues, classmates, professors, and the Education Department. Needless to say, it was a little unnerving. But it went well and I was content.

Now that it's over with, I only have two days left as Miss Taylor to my students. I took today off so I could go for an interview in the town I'm moving to. Wish me luck in those regards! I'm slightly sad to leave my students. I've been with them for two semesters now but, honestly, I'm completely ready to go. It's been way too long and I'm just ready to move on.

As I progress to the end of the semester and my roommates prepare to move out, we've dropped internet and cable again. I forgot what it was like without the two. I still have internet, of course. It's the city's wifi so it's definitely not the best in the world but it does pretty good considering. But going without television? I ALWAYS have the television on for background noise. Now it's off and I'm readjusting to listening to music and the sounds of the city again.

Not only am I changing things on the home-front but I'm also trying to change who I am as a person. Summer is my time for resolutions, not the New Year. So I've resolved to be a better person and not put myself in difficult situations again. I've been treating people better and working on my patience. I want to leave behind the cut-and-dry, unemotional Bekah this year demanded of me. I'm ready to return to my old ways. I want to become amazingly spiritual again, spend my days meditating, learning, and growing. I'm proud of what I'm doing so far and there's only room for improvement from here.

I've even had time to get back to writing this past week. I haven't yet opened my books but I did open up my Book Bits. If you can recall, these are tidbits of stories either related or nonrelated to my books. They are pretty much short stories of random situations that pop into my head. I decided to write one that concerned addiction the other day and it was really interesting. I'm rather proud of what I've done.

I think the last bit of information I have to update is my dog-search. I have yet to receive final word from my family (the ones I'm living with this summer) that it's clear to get a puppy. Now, my gut feelings are often correct and this one is telling me I'll get a no as an answer but I am praying I get a yes. These last few days of searching for a puppy have been so much fun. Chasing down the perfect dog (within a budget) has been a thrill and it's even more fun for me to realize that I would be responsible for someone other than myself. I think there are times when you spend too much time on yourself, thinking, sitting, wasting away, without accomplishing much. To have a puppy would give me the chance to worry over someone else. It would give me a mission and, more importantly, a companion who doesn't care if I don't wash my dishes each day, don't make my bed as soon as I wake up, get A's on all my homework, or say the right thing to my elders.

So here's to hoping and let's hope hoping does its duty!