Even after 9 completed books, 2 incompleted, and 1 in-progress novel, I still cannot come to a depressing scene and write it easily. They always get me. Every damn time, without fail, they prove to stop me in my tracks.
I don't think it matters how seasoned a writer I become. I will always reach the scene where a character must be killed off and I will drag my feet. I will sit there and stare at the screen wishing there was some other way to further the plot. Perhaps there's another route for the characters to take, another action that could sidestep the inevitable.
But you have to do it. A writer has to put up her dukes, settle in for the long haul, and lay out the scene that tears her heart to pieces.
I've spent months with these characters and now I will spend one 2-hour writing session killing one off.
Sad day :(
Because I tend to be introverted, I have a satirical blog to voice bitterness, awe, and faith in people, God, and the future.
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Monday, December 17, 2012
Writer's Angst: The Sad Parts
One part of writing that I immensely dislike is how much a writer has to involve herself with her work. To effectively write a beautiful and realistic work, a writer has to make her characters relatable to the reader. She can only do this by identifying with the characters, at least in some small way.
So when I get to a sad part in a book, it affects my entire day. I drag myself down from an emotional high and focus my thoughts only on the sadness before me. I force my novel's world to become my world for a day.
It's a dangerous game. Merging fiction with reality is never a smart thing but I feel the only way to write a realistic story is by dragging it into reality.
So right now I'm stuck wishing this chapter was over already. I'm trying to rush through it just so I can entertain joyful thoughts again.
All the while, I'm remembering the idea that a writer is a god and because of that we have to suffer right along with our characters when they falter. It's a fact of reality and fiction and it's one I tend to despise.
So when I get to a sad part in a book, it affects my entire day. I drag myself down from an emotional high and focus my thoughts only on the sadness before me. I force my novel's world to become my world for a day.
It's a dangerous game. Merging fiction with reality is never a smart thing but I feel the only way to write a realistic story is by dragging it into reality.
So right now I'm stuck wishing this chapter was over already. I'm trying to rush through it just so I can entertain joyful thoughts again.
All the while, I'm remembering the idea that a writer is a god and because of that we have to suffer right along with our characters when they falter. It's a fact of reality and fiction and it's one I tend to despise.
Saturday, December 15, 2012
Success!
Turns out I had a pretty good writing session last night. I was so tired that I barely recalled what I had worked on until I woke this morning and had time to look over it. It was a lovely scene of revisiting the past and recalling beloved family members.
Here's a quick snippet.
Here's a quick snippet.
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Surrender
"As humans we are instinctively doubtful. We cannot survive if we close our eyes and blindly rush into things. I think this is the reason we bank so much on seeing and believing. It keeps us safe and gives us inarguable reasons to explain the world and what happens around us. There is no question in life if you believe just what you see.
But that is also our flaw. We cannot persevere into the great beyond if we cannot accept what we cannot see. If we are unsure about something, if we doubt what we are told is truth, then we must explain it another way. And with those questions in your head, you can never exist at peace. You are shaken. You are moved. You are the beginning of a revolution.
Who knows what you'll find in that darkness. Who knows if you'll even survive. The only thing we can be certain of is that by letting go of what we see and believe and instead surrender ourselves to something more we can become a being greater than we were created as.Only by shutting our eyes and reaching out into the darkness for something, or someone, to grasp us can we truly begin to find meaning in our existence."
But that is also our flaw. We cannot persevere into the great beyond if we cannot accept what we cannot see. If we are unsure about something, if we doubt what we are told is truth, then we must explain it another way. And with those questions in your head, you can never exist at peace. You are shaken. You are moved. You are the beginning of a revolution.
Who knows what you'll find in that darkness. Who knows if you'll even survive. The only thing we can be certain of is that by letting go of what we see and believe and instead surrender ourselves to something more we can become a being greater than we were created as.Only by shutting our eyes and reaching out into the darkness for something, or someone, to grasp us can we truly begin to find meaning in our existence."
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
The Fatal Flaw
Every character has one or at least should have one. It's what brings your characters to life and in turn brings your story to life. Some characters have really obvious flaws. You know within a few minutes of meeting them what their flaw is. Others take a little more time. No matter what group your character falls under they all have a flaw.
First off, let's look at what a fatal flaw is. Essentially, a fatal flaw is the character struggling to hold on to an old mindset/behavior/temperament that has long outlived its purpose. Basically, the character has survived up to this point with this flaw because that is what life demands it. However, by the time your story's beginning comes around, that temperament has long overstayed its welcome. The character has come to a point where he no longer needs that mindset. But because he has lived with it so long he's going to hold on to it until life forces him to choose to either remain set in his ways (give up) or adapt to the changes (overcome), which in itself is your crisis (Part of story where the MC is met with an obstacle that threatens his/her beliefs and character and he/she must choose to either press forward or give up).
If a writer isn't quite sure what their characters' fatal flaws are, they should look at the goal or theme of their story. Usually the fatal flaws are the complete opposite of the goal and serve as the antithesis. For example, with my current writing project, I have three main characters. The overall premise of the story is to learn to look passed the scars of the past and see the world waiting on the other side. It's a story of learning to accept what has happened and move on while never forgetting the past. Redemption and rebirth.
So your characters' fatal flaws have to fall under this theme. Ethan, the MC, is struggling to accept his parents divorce, the death of his mother and now the death of his father, and the trials his foster family put him through. He's been scarred and his defense against the pain was building an impenetrable wall of strength around himself. People can't hurt him anymore. At the same time, people can't get close to him. He won't let himself trust people and because of that he won't let down his wall. So he becomes stuck in a rut of self-preservation, making his inability to accept intimacy his fatal flaw.
His SCs have flaws that are similar to his but in different ways. Matt, an employee at the shelter Ethan inherited, is broken in a more literal sense than Ethan. After serving three tours in the marines, he's retired from the corps because of a near-death experience. He is now plagued with night terrors, PTSD, and physical scars from the ambush. Because of this, he rarely adventures out into town and loses most of his friends because of survivor's remorse. He doesn't fear opening up as Ethan does but he does fear judgment. His defense is to put on a very energetic front that distracts from his wounds and keeps people from seeing the real him. If he is to heal as the theme of the book suggests then he must overcome these flaws in order to do so.
Addie is our next SC. She used to be Ethan's best friend before his parents divorced and his mother died, forcing him to move out of town. She is the wife of Matt's best friend Jack. Jack served under Matt in the marines and was killed in the ambush Matt was caught in. Matt managed to rush his body back to base. Addie was left widowed though. She wants to not blame Matt for what happened to Jack and tries to convince herself that she has moved on from losing her husband and puts on a very sweet and lighthearted appearance. Underneath she is full of hate and bitterness. She goes to church but blames God for her loss. She works with Matt at the shelter but blames him for what happened to Jack. She wants to be friends with Ethan just as they were as kids but she doesn't like the guarded person he is now. In order to move beyond her flaws, she has to face her fears and accept what life is now.
Once a writer has a fatal flaw the story itself can fall into place. You can't have conflict without struggle. In order to heal, one must have been wounded. It's the wounds that create scars and it's the scars that must be healed in order for a character to rise from his ashes. Thus, the fatal flaw becomes one of the most important aspects of writing.
First off, let's look at what a fatal flaw is. Essentially, a fatal flaw is the character struggling to hold on to an old mindset/behavior/temperament that has long outlived its purpose. Basically, the character has survived up to this point with this flaw because that is what life demands it. However, by the time your story's beginning comes around, that temperament has long overstayed its welcome. The character has come to a point where he no longer needs that mindset. But because he has lived with it so long he's going to hold on to it until life forces him to choose to either remain set in his ways (give up) or adapt to the changes (overcome), which in itself is your crisis (Part of story where the MC is met with an obstacle that threatens his/her beliefs and character and he/she must choose to either press forward or give up).
If a writer isn't quite sure what their characters' fatal flaws are, they should look at the goal or theme of their story. Usually the fatal flaws are the complete opposite of the goal and serve as the antithesis. For example, with my current writing project, I have three main characters. The overall premise of the story is to learn to look passed the scars of the past and see the world waiting on the other side. It's a story of learning to accept what has happened and move on while never forgetting the past. Redemption and rebirth.
So your characters' fatal flaws have to fall under this theme. Ethan, the MC, is struggling to accept his parents divorce, the death of his mother and now the death of his father, and the trials his foster family put him through. He's been scarred and his defense against the pain was building an impenetrable wall of strength around himself. People can't hurt him anymore. At the same time, people can't get close to him. He won't let himself trust people and because of that he won't let down his wall. So he becomes stuck in a rut of self-preservation, making his inability to accept intimacy his fatal flaw.
His SCs have flaws that are similar to his but in different ways. Matt, an employee at the shelter Ethan inherited, is broken in a more literal sense than Ethan. After serving three tours in the marines, he's retired from the corps because of a near-death experience. He is now plagued with night terrors, PTSD, and physical scars from the ambush. Because of this, he rarely adventures out into town and loses most of his friends because of survivor's remorse. He doesn't fear opening up as Ethan does but he does fear judgment. His defense is to put on a very energetic front that distracts from his wounds and keeps people from seeing the real him. If he is to heal as the theme of the book suggests then he must overcome these flaws in order to do so.
Addie is our next SC. She used to be Ethan's best friend before his parents divorced and his mother died, forcing him to move out of town. She is the wife of Matt's best friend Jack. Jack served under Matt in the marines and was killed in the ambush Matt was caught in. Matt managed to rush his body back to base. Addie was left widowed though. She wants to not blame Matt for what happened to Jack and tries to convince herself that she has moved on from losing her husband and puts on a very sweet and lighthearted appearance. Underneath she is full of hate and bitterness. She goes to church but blames God for her loss. She works with Matt at the shelter but blames him for what happened to Jack. She wants to be friends with Ethan just as they were as kids but she doesn't like the guarded person he is now. In order to move beyond her flaws, she has to face her fears and accept what life is now.
Once a writer has a fatal flaw the story itself can fall into place. You can't have conflict without struggle. In order to heal, one must have been wounded. It's the wounds that create scars and it's the scars that must be healed in order for a character to rise from his ashes. Thus, the fatal flaw becomes one of the most important aspects of writing.
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Friday, November 30, 2012
She Be Done!
Well, technically, she be done in the sense that I have achieved my 50k goal by the end of November and thus won Nanorimo this year. That means in around 21 days I wrote a crap-ton of words and came up with a novel I love and characters I enjoy getting to know.
Here's the proof!
Ah, sweet victory, you sure are beautiful. There is nothing quite like validating your final word count and having the screen switch to the 'Congratulations, you won!' page. I know I say this every year but I am never competing again!
Until next year of course :)
Here's a quick snippet of the novel-in-progress.
Here's the proof!
Ah, sweet victory, you sure are beautiful. There is nothing quite like validating your final word count and having the screen switch to the 'Congratulations, you won!' page. I know I say this every year but I am never competing again!
Until next year of course :)
Here's a quick snippet of the novel-in-progress.
Monday, November 26, 2012
Ingrained Memory
Ever have those songs that you listen to once while doing something and then from that moment on that song reminds you precisely of that moment?
Well, this song ALWAYS reminds me of driving to the library I worked at in high school while drinking Snapple kiwi-strawberry drinks. Every.Single.Time. I can't hear it without thinking of Snapple.
Well, this song ALWAYS reminds me of driving to the library I worked at in high school while drinking Snapple kiwi-strawberry drinks. Every.Single.Time. I can't hear it without thinking of Snapple.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
My Overwhelming Religion
Ever have those moments where there are so many thoughts racing through your head that you practically want to scream them out at the top of your lungs?
This, readers, is one of those days.
I went to see Life of Pi last night. I read this book many years ago in high school and it stayed with me for many years. It was the basis of my own religious beliefs. After revisiting its ideals once again, I can't help but sit here and wonder to myself how anyone can believe just one religion.
Why is it that we must be confined to one set of beliefs? Why is it that if we want to be 'true believers' we only follow one religion and ignore the others? Why are we called cheats and flip-floppers when we try to look at other religions and bring their beliefs into our lives?
But I'm not here to just sit around and complain! The truth behind those questions lies in something that is so magically beautiful that it fills my heart. I choose to not just believe in one religion because there are so many wonderful things about all the religions.
How can someone not love the way that in Buddhism (sometimes considered to not be a religion due to no god) the true goal of life is to look inward and see the root of all problems, both within and outside the person? Only by recognizing our weakness can we reach beyond and leave behind our foolish tendencies and become something pure and simple.
In Hinduism, your goal is to reach enlightenment and this can only be achieved through the four main paths. You are not alone in Hinduism. You are part of a great, all-encompassing cycle that repeats until you achieve transcendence. One aspect of this is the belief in noninjury and that is what I bring from Hinduism. I will not kill. I cannot take a life because all life is sacred.
When you bring all these religions together, when you practice their beliefs and expose your mind and body to their customs and teachings, you become something more than just a simple believer. You become something so much more.
That's why I cannot bring myself to believe just one religion. Each religion has its own aspects that are beautiful and respected. By bringing these pieces together, you educate yourself in the ways of the world and the customs of millions of other humans and, in turn, you become xposed to so much more than just what one culture calls acceptable. You rise above judgement and prejudice.
In the end, when I pray I have the comfort that I am praying to the same God that millions of people all around the world in corners of countries I've never seen are praying to, even if that God goes by different names.
This, readers, is one of those days.
I went to see Life of Pi last night. I read this book many years ago in high school and it stayed with me for many years. It was the basis of my own religious beliefs. After revisiting its ideals once again, I can't help but sit here and wonder to myself how anyone can believe just one religion.
Why is it that we must be confined to one set of beliefs? Why is it that if we want to be 'true believers' we only follow one religion and ignore the others? Why are we called cheats and flip-floppers when we try to look at other religions and bring their beliefs into our lives?
But I'm not here to just sit around and complain! The truth behind those questions lies in something that is so magically beautiful that it fills my heart. I choose to not just believe in one religion because there are so many wonderful things about all the religions.
How can someone not love the way that in Buddhism (sometimes considered to not be a religion due to no god) the true goal of life is to look inward and see the root of all problems, both within and outside the person? Only by recognizing our weakness can we reach beyond and leave behind our foolish tendencies and become something pure and simple.
In Hinduism, your goal is to reach enlightenment and this can only be achieved through the four main paths. You are not alone in Hinduism. You are part of a great, all-encompassing cycle that repeats until you achieve transcendence. One aspect of this is the belief in noninjury and that is what I bring from Hinduism. I will not kill. I cannot take a life because all life is sacred.
When you bring all these religions together, when you practice their beliefs and expose your mind and body to their customs and teachings, you become something more than just a simple believer. You become something so much more.
That's why I cannot bring myself to believe just one religion. Each religion has its own aspects that are beautiful and respected. By bringing these pieces together, you educate yourself in the ways of the world and the customs of millions of other humans and, in turn, you become xposed to so much more than just what one culture calls acceptable. You rise above judgement and prejudice.
In the end, when I pray I have the comfort that I am praying to the same God that millions of people all around the world in corners of countries I've never seen are praying to, even if that God goes by different names.
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Friday, November 23, 2012
Torn
"It's ridiculous really how things end up. For twenty-five years she's been there for me. For eighteen years she helped me stay on time, do my homework, taught me what was right and wrong, and gave me everything she had. She helped me move into college. Went I went overseas, she prayed for me and my squad everyday. When I came home she was right there at the hospital to take care of me. Now here I am. She doesn't even realize I'm here. She doesn't even know she has a son anymore. I reckon keeping her like this is the least I can do to give her as much time as possible."
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Writing Update
With it being the day before the holiday and chores begging to be done and responsibilities calling, I'm a tad short on time. So here's a quick update on the novel-in-progress.
A week and a half-ish after starting, I have a tad over 23k words written. It's November 21 and that leaves 27k to be written before the end of the month. We'll see if that happens! Even if I don't win Nano, I still love the book. It's so different to be writing this genre. The plot unwraps in such a strange way that it's still a little bewildering. The only solution I can think of? Just roll with it! Besides, this is my first realistic fiction so mistakes are allowed.
Here's a tidbit from the story. This features Matt, the secondary character and friend to MC Ethan. Matt suffers from PTSD after serving in Afghanistan and having his motorcade ambushed. He's also a little intense. I would say he's most similar to Jace from the Bell Tower series but he is by far the first character of his kind I've written.
A week and a half-ish after starting, I have a tad over 23k words written. It's November 21 and that leaves 27k to be written before the end of the month. We'll see if that happens! Even if I don't win Nano, I still love the book. It's so different to be writing this genre. The plot unwraps in such a strange way that it's still a little bewildering. The only solution I can think of? Just roll with it! Besides, this is my first realistic fiction so mistakes are allowed.
Here's a tidbit from the story. This features Matt, the secondary character and friend to MC Ethan. Matt suffers from PTSD after serving in Afghanistan and having his motorcade ambushed. He's also a little intense. I would say he's most similar to Jace from the Bell Tower series but he is by far the first character of his kind I've written.
When Matt saw nothing of interest in the fridge, he closed
it and spun around as he picked up the scent of coffee. “That’s what I need.”
One second
he was by the fridge and the next he was grabbing a mug from above the
coffeemaker and pouring a cup. It only then dawned on Ethan that Matt was
probably a little too slim for his height and build. There should have been a
few extra pounds on him. But he had no time to worry about food while he
grabbed the sugar from the pantry and shoveled three scoops in his coffee.
Ethan
stared at him. “Really? Three scoops of sugar?”
Matt
grinned “I need to wake up.”
Friday, November 16, 2012
Sheriff Mayberry
The officer parked in front of the office before getting out
of his squad car. He waved out at them and headed up to the front door. After
living the last seventeen years in the city, this man was the strangest lawman
he’d ever seen. His brown uniform was pressed and neatly arranged on his imposing
frame. The sheriff’s star hung over his right breast pocket while above it was his
name tag of R. Mayberry. Somehow the name fit the owner. His skin was leathery
from years in the sun, his hair a dash of salt and pepper over strawberry blonde,
and a handlebar mustache so bushy across his upper lip that it looked like the
thistles of a wicker broom.
He nodded
his head at him, touching his finger to the faded cowboy hat on his head before
he mumbled, “You must be Mr. Williams.”
Sunday, November 11, 2012
I Want You to Make Me Feel Again
That's the phrase that keeps ringing in my head for this book. It's an old writing mantra writers use to remind themselves to make a book so moving, so inspirational and tragic and stunningly beautiful, that a reader can't help but be affected.
Writing a realistic fiction is so different from fantasy. In fantasy book, your enemy is clear, especially in my novels. You know that the guy that's committing war crimes and tearing through the nation is your enemy. You know there's something that has to be done to stop him. There's a slow and steady plot as the enemy's plan is revealed and your characters must fight to prevent it from succeeding.
That is so not true with realistic fiction. Your enemy isn't ripping through the nation. He isn't plotting and planning your downfall - at least not proactively. In this story, you have a person with a damaged background suffering PTSD and struggling to survive while he fights to keep a dog shelter from going under. But there's no black and white in this novel. There's no true and clear antagonist or even protagonist. The characters are a host of flawed people with positives and substantial negatives.
The only way I'm charging through this is by reminding myself that I have to make the reader care for each of these characters in a way that will move them when the ending comes. I have to make the reader love them when they do something wise, hate them when they turn their backs on good, and sympathize with them when they stumble.
The healing a character has to go through in a realistic fiction novel is incredibly different from anything I've worked on before. But I'm learning the tricks. Ethan, my MC, must have flaws that keep him from succeeding. The enemy in this novel is not clearly an outside force. It's an inside force that the character must defeat.
At one point in the novel, Ethan speaks of his childhood and has this to say; "When I think about it, I shouldn't be so upset. It's not like getting hit as a kid destroys the world. I need to move on. But when I think about it, for that kid that I used to be, the day I was first hit was the day my world was destroyed."
That is the point of the 'feel' mantra. The writer must make the reader feel as if the story they are reading is the entire world. They have to pray for their heroes. They have to bite their nails and sit on the edge of the seat when they are caught in troublesome places. They have to quietly weep when they are hurt and betrayed. Because when that book ends that world has come to an end and the reader must feel wholly devoted and confident in the ending provided.
A Scene Like This Moves Viewers
Writing a realistic fiction is so different from fantasy. In fantasy book, your enemy is clear, especially in my novels. You know that the guy that's committing war crimes and tearing through the nation is your enemy. You know there's something that has to be done to stop him. There's a slow and steady plot as the enemy's plan is revealed and your characters must fight to prevent it from succeeding.
That is so not true with realistic fiction. Your enemy isn't ripping through the nation. He isn't plotting and planning your downfall - at least not proactively. In this story, you have a person with a damaged background suffering PTSD and struggling to survive while he fights to keep a dog shelter from going under. But there's no black and white in this novel. There's no true and clear antagonist or even protagonist. The characters are a host of flawed people with positives and substantial negatives.
The only way I'm charging through this is by reminding myself that I have to make the reader care for each of these characters in a way that will move them when the ending comes. I have to make the reader love them when they do something wise, hate them when they turn their backs on good, and sympathize with them when they stumble.
The healing a character has to go through in a realistic fiction novel is incredibly different from anything I've worked on before. But I'm learning the tricks. Ethan, my MC, must have flaws that keep him from succeeding. The enemy in this novel is not clearly an outside force. It's an inside force that the character must defeat.
At one point in the novel, Ethan speaks of his childhood and has this to say; "When I think about it, I shouldn't be so upset. It's not like getting hit as a kid destroys the world. I need to move on. But when I think about it, for that kid that I used to be, the day I was first hit was the day my world was destroyed."
That is the point of the 'feel' mantra. The writer must make the reader feel as if the story they are reading is the entire world. They have to pray for their heroes. They have to bite their nails and sit on the edge of the seat when they are caught in troublesome places. They have to quietly weep when they are hurt and betrayed. Because when that book ends that world has come to an end and the reader must feel wholly devoted and confident in the ending provided.
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Next Writing Project
I decided to try my hand at realistic fiction. This is the first time I've written for this genre. All my past books have been fantasy/adventure so you can imagine how intimidating it is to write something that has to be so grounded and realistic. Here's a brief rundown of the story.
What is the title of the story?
Lazarus Story
What is the synopsis of the story?
Ethan receives a call saying his estranged father has passed away, leaving him with his troubled animal shelter and the staff that runs it. While settling in to his position as shelter manager Ethan is entrusted with a dozen dogs rescued from a dog-fighting ring. He is faced with the task of rehabilitating the dogs before animal advocates claim them, keeping the shelter from drowning, earning the trust of his newly inherited staff, and caring for himself as he fights the demons from his parents' divorce and the troublesome past he spent in the foster system.
Where did the inspiration for this story come from?
It actually came from the life I've led while living on a farm for the last year. I've watched as some animals thrive, others withdraw, and the rest learn to live with the humans they are placed with. I wanted to write a story about how animals and people are both so similar in that they can scar so easily but take so much work to recover. I wanted to use pitbulls as a major plot because they have a terribly mistaken history.
What pushed you to write this story?
I had the idea floating around for a while but shelved it. In the last few weeks, it's really spoken to me and I thought now would be the best time to just go ahead and write it.
Why should people read this book as compared to others?
This book is so realistic that it could just about happen to anyone. Ethan's work with the shelter isn't unrealistic like most animal books. There are successes and failures but it's through these events that humans and animals both develop. If someone likes animals then they will like this book!
What is the title of the story?
Lazarus Story
What is the synopsis of the story?
Ethan receives a call saying his estranged father has passed away, leaving him with his troubled animal shelter and the staff that runs it. While settling in to his position as shelter manager Ethan is entrusted with a dozen dogs rescued from a dog-fighting ring. He is faced with the task of rehabilitating the dogs before animal advocates claim them, keeping the shelter from drowning, earning the trust of his newly inherited staff, and caring for himself as he fights the demons from his parents' divorce and the troublesome past he spent in the foster system.
Where did the inspiration for this story come from?
It actually came from the life I've led while living on a farm for the last year. I've watched as some animals thrive, others withdraw, and the rest learn to live with the humans they are placed with. I wanted to write a story about how animals and people are both so similar in that they can scar so easily but take so much work to recover. I wanted to use pitbulls as a major plot because they have a terribly mistaken history.
What pushed you to write this story?
I had the idea floating around for a while but shelved it. In the last few weeks, it's really spoken to me and I thought now would be the best time to just go ahead and write it.
Why should people read this book as compared to others?
This book is so realistic that it could just about happen to anyone. Ethan's work with the shelter isn't unrealistic like most animal books. There are successes and failures but it's through these events that humans and animals both develop. If someone likes animals then they will like this book!
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Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Writer's Thoughts: Big Reveals
You know what moment I love most in books? The big reveal. It's that pivotal scene where things come together for the characters and, for the tiniest fraction of time, the world makes sense.
Other reveals take place toward the beginning. These ones tend to be smaller and not as monumental and game-changing as the final reveal. This scene from Book 2 has Meika, a desert native, discussing the desert people's view of God as she tries to convince Roan there is a God out there.
Book 1's Reveal at the Crisis
Some reveals are typical. They take place at the end of the novel where the character is transformed by all the events leading to this moment. Book 1's reveal was like this. It happened soon after the crisis.
Book 2's Reveal Near the Middle
Other reveals take place toward the beginning. These ones tend to be smaller and not as monumental and game-changing as the final reveal. This scene from Book 2 has Meika, a desert native, discussing the desert people's view of God as she tries to convince Roan there is a God out there.
Book 2's Final Big Reveal
This reveal reiterated the first one as Roan comes to terms with the fact that there truly is a god. This is the crisis of the story and still one of my all time favorites. It might even take the cake for being my favorite scene in all my works thus far.
Book 3's Reveal Near the End of the Middle
This reveal was not the main one for Book 3 but it was important nonetheless as it serves as the main plot to this book. Roan comes across this reveal before the crisis hits. It's different from the others because this reveal was the epiphany of tension in the novel. It all came to this moment where Roan thought he had everything figured out. Unfortunately, after this rather positive reveal he was dealt a terrible blow and his spirit broken. Most reveals tend to set up characters for success. This one not so much.
Book 4's Big Reveal Had Help From Jace
After basically taking a hiatus from the series for a couple books, Jace came back in this final big reveal as he attempted to help Roan describe what he learned as the plot progressed in Book 4. Roan's reveal here was extremely impressive, perhaps the greatest since Book 2. I really enjoyed writing this one.
There are a number of reveals in a novel but only one big reveal. Timing that moment to perfectly coincide with the crisis, climax, and the transformation is a struggle but definitely an art. It's one of my favorite things to write, probably thanks to its difficulty!
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Years Later
It's been exactly two years since I wrote this post. You'd think I would have things figured out by now but I'm human and that means I am flawed.
Basically, these days I'm still struggling with faith. I was called to this post today and after reading it I am once again reminded of why I do not see immediate results in life. I'm being called to patience and I have to make an effort to do as I am called to.
Basically, these days I'm still struggling with faith. I was called to this post today and after reading it I am once again reminded of why I do not see immediate results in life. I'm being called to patience and I have to make an effort to do as I am called to.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Looking Inward
There are some times where I have to stop and wonder how I've gotten myself where I am. This point in my life is one of those times.
The other night I was late doing chores for one reason or another. By the time I finished milking and such, it was hours past sunset and I somehow managed a moment to look up at the sky. It was a perfectly clear night and there were thousands of stars sprinkled all across the skies.
I've seen stars a thousand times before so it isn't like I'm new to the world of stars at night but for some reason I stopped dead in my tracks and looked up at the expanse above me. I just stared.
That's when I realized that I hadn't taken the time to stop and look up at the sky for quite a while. Life has been so hectic and most days by the time I finish chores my only concern is getting inside as quickly as possible. But that night I stood in the dark and watched in awe as the world glistened above me. It was amazing really. It still is. Thousands of stars, all within sight but still only the surface of a galaxy untouchable and unexplored. Here I was, a simple creature, looking at these lights and wondering at both my own mortality and the beauty of the world.
In that moment, it was just me, nature, and God spending a few private minutes together. It wasn't until later that I realized the reason I stopped and stared. It had been too long since I've looked upon the world with wonder.
There was once a time when I could look around me and see beauty in the simplest things. My faith pushed me onward while the world unfolded before me like pages to a book. I meditated, I questioned, and I sought out answers.
I think I've grown complacent. I've settled into a niche and forgotten that there is so much more than just this. I think it's time I force myself to reach out toward God and invest in my religion and then reach out and invest in my community. It's time I come to grips with the world around me and begin searching out new ways to develop and love the world as I once did years ago.
It's funny that such a profound change can be spurred merely by being late to chores and watching the stars at night.
The other night I was late doing chores for one reason or another. By the time I finished milking and such, it was hours past sunset and I somehow managed a moment to look up at the sky. It was a perfectly clear night and there were thousands of stars sprinkled all across the skies.
I've seen stars a thousand times before so it isn't like I'm new to the world of stars at night but for some reason I stopped dead in my tracks and looked up at the expanse above me. I just stared.
That's when I realized that I hadn't taken the time to stop and look up at the sky for quite a while. Life has been so hectic and most days by the time I finish chores my only concern is getting inside as quickly as possible. But that night I stood in the dark and watched in awe as the world glistened above me. It was amazing really. It still is. Thousands of stars, all within sight but still only the surface of a galaxy untouchable and unexplored. Here I was, a simple creature, looking at these lights and wondering at both my own mortality and the beauty of the world.
In that moment, it was just me, nature, and God spending a few private minutes together. It wasn't until later that I realized the reason I stopped and stared. It had been too long since I've looked upon the world with wonder.
There was once a time when I could look around me and see beauty in the simplest things. My faith pushed me onward while the world unfolded before me like pages to a book. I meditated, I questioned, and I sought out answers.
I think I've grown complacent. I've settled into a niche and forgotten that there is so much more than just this. I think it's time I force myself to reach out toward God and invest in my religion and then reach out and invest in my community. It's time I come to grips with the world around me and begin searching out new ways to develop and love the world as I once did years ago.
It's funny that such a profound change can be spurred merely by being late to chores and watching the stars at night.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
What's In A Name?
A lot actually.
When it comes to writing and selecting a name for characters some people aren't sure where to start. In my experience, I've both had successes and failures with names.
I think the best way to go about naming a character is by doing research. My series is of the type where each book is sprinkled with hints and evidence of a plot that doesn't become entirely clear until the final book. If a reader is keen and watchful they could probably discover the end of the series before they even reached the last book.
Because of this, there are tons of meaning-heavy aspects in the series and names are one way I do this. I want each of my characters to provide a puzzle piece to the series and present an aspect that is different from the rest of the crew.
So let's check out a few of the main characters' names and how they correlate to the story.
1) Roan - Roan's name is actually the same word used to describe the color of a horse. The horse would be a sorrel (red) with flecks of either black, grey, or white in its fur. While this wouldn't make much sense to describe a person, it actually applies to the main character here. He is similar to the horse in the fashion that he is the man responsible for the troubles of the nations. He is a beast of burden, forced by fate to carry the burdens of thousands. He is also red in the sense that he is the first and only flame mage in hundreds of years. The grey, black, and white all come in because he wants to represent every side of the war, from good to neutral to evil.
2) Jace - Jace is actually a variation of Jason but I tend to steer away from that meaning. I actually chose Jace for this character because he is a snarky, rude, impatient, yet fiery, fiercely loyal and passionate best friend to Roan. It's only when Jace is at his side that Roan performs his best, making him Roan's ace out of his deck of friends.
3) Aella - Her name descends from Greek mythology. She technically means "whirlwind" but in the books she has a softer side and personality. She is a whirlwind in the fashion that when she shows up, Roan's world basically changes overnight as her beliefs and actions challenge him to take action in a way he never did before.
4) Arobin - This name is purely made up by me. Arobin began as Roan's enemy and murderer of one of his close friends. However, when he switches sides, he actually signifies a rebirth, both of the wicked into the pure, and Roan's past as an innocent child into the veteran he becomes. Basically, the way I saw it, when spring comes around people always shout "Look, a robin!" and point out the bird as the sign spring has come. I wanted his name to represent the same signal.
Here are a few quick meanings of several more characters...
Rand - "Shield". Serves as Roan's general in the west and personal melee guard
Sella - "Freedom". She represents the ability Roan wishes he had to live freely in the wilderness.
Meika - "Meek". She was a quiet desert-dweller who developed feelings for Roan which he reciprocated.
Kaelyn - "Beauty". Represented both physical and emotional beauty as a woman embittered by war but healing.
Travis - "Crossroads". It is with Travis that Roan's realm and the other realm intersect.
Tucker - "One who cleans cloth". A confusing one. He serves as the first of the new race of Steppers, essentially sifting out the old from the new.
Arri - "Lion". She is the first of the Steppers that vow allegiance to Roan despite it meaning they might be executed.
So that's how I choose names for my characters. It takes time and work but I love the names my characters are given. At least, after some editing. Some of these characters have been named and renamed. Aella was once Bridget and Rand was Raul. Other minor things also changed. The spelling was tweaked, etc, but in the end the names fit the characters and become something I feel deeply about.
When it comes to writing and selecting a name for characters some people aren't sure where to start. In my experience, I've both had successes and failures with names.
I think the best way to go about naming a character is by doing research. My series is of the type where each book is sprinkled with hints and evidence of a plot that doesn't become entirely clear until the final book. If a reader is keen and watchful they could probably discover the end of the series before they even reached the last book.
Because of this, there are tons of meaning-heavy aspects in the series and names are one way I do this. I want each of my characters to provide a puzzle piece to the series and present an aspect that is different from the rest of the crew.
So let's check out a few of the main characters' names and how they correlate to the story.
1) Roan - Roan's name is actually the same word used to describe the color of a horse. The horse would be a sorrel (red) with flecks of either black, grey, or white in its fur. While this wouldn't make much sense to describe a person, it actually applies to the main character here. He is similar to the horse in the fashion that he is the man responsible for the troubles of the nations. He is a beast of burden, forced by fate to carry the burdens of thousands. He is also red in the sense that he is the first and only flame mage in hundreds of years. The grey, black, and white all come in because he wants to represent every side of the war, from good to neutral to evil.
2) Jace - Jace is actually a variation of Jason but I tend to steer away from that meaning. I actually chose Jace for this character because he is a snarky, rude, impatient, yet fiery, fiercely loyal and passionate best friend to Roan. It's only when Jace is at his side that Roan performs his best, making him Roan's ace out of his deck of friends.
3) Aella - Her name descends from Greek mythology. She technically means "whirlwind" but in the books she has a softer side and personality. She is a whirlwind in the fashion that when she shows up, Roan's world basically changes overnight as her beliefs and actions challenge him to take action in a way he never did before.
4) Arobin - This name is purely made up by me. Arobin began as Roan's enemy and murderer of one of his close friends. However, when he switches sides, he actually signifies a rebirth, both of the wicked into the pure, and Roan's past as an innocent child into the veteran he becomes. Basically, the way I saw it, when spring comes around people always shout "Look, a robin!" and point out the bird as the sign spring has come. I wanted his name to represent the same signal.
Here are a few quick meanings of several more characters...
Rand - "Shield". Serves as Roan's general in the west and personal melee guard
Sella - "Freedom". She represents the ability Roan wishes he had to live freely in the wilderness.
Meika - "Meek". She was a quiet desert-dweller who developed feelings for Roan which he reciprocated.
Kaelyn - "Beauty". Represented both physical and emotional beauty as a woman embittered by war but healing.
Travis - "Crossroads". It is with Travis that Roan's realm and the other realm intersect.
Tucker - "One who cleans cloth". A confusing one. He serves as the first of the new race of Steppers, essentially sifting out the old from the new.
Arri - "Lion". She is the first of the Steppers that vow allegiance to Roan despite it meaning they might be executed.
So that's how I choose names for my characters. It takes time and work but I love the names my characters are given. At least, after some editing. Some of these characters have been named and renamed. Aella was once Bridget and Rand was Raul. Other minor things also changed. The spelling was tweaked, etc, but in the end the names fit the characters and become something I feel deeply about.
Monday, October 22, 2012
Showing Character Development in Hidden Ways
It took a decent while but Book 4 is finally edited and finished. It clocked in at 302 pages, 195.5k words, and perhaps one of the best climaxes I've ever written. It was a fun book and I thoroughly enjoyed it. In the span of this novel, Roan has developed from an overwhelmed soldier into a seasoned leader and politician, realized the true, gritty depth of war, and come to terms with his role in it.
One of my proudest plot points in this book was showing the steady development of Roan being an at-ease, unpolished soldier and barely leader material into an experienced warrior and a leader willing to step up to the plate and take responsibility for his and his administration's faults.
In addition to the plots and dialogue, this was also demonstrated in a far less obvious way. The novel begins with Arobin first seeing Roan after a four-week separation and, by noting he wore a grey tee and unbuttoned flannel shirt, mentioning how he looked like any other kid off the street. In the first few chapters Roan stuck to wearing his flannel shirt and jeans. However, as both the story and Roan developed, he wore the flannel less and when he did wear it he wore it buttoned up. He occasionally reclaimed it and the comfort it provided by sleeping with a flannel blanket but eventually left behind this blanket as well.
In the final chapter, Roan is seen preparing a statement to the nations. Throughout this scene, Roan struggles to come to terms with the fact that he indeed screwed up as leader. As he reminds himself that one of the best qualities in a leader is the ability to admit fault and claim responsibility, he also slowly puts on the garments of a businessman. He buttons up his collared blue shirt, representing the boy who grew up with a blue-collared job turning into a white-collared professional. He then puts on his tie and ties it up, demonstrating his willingness to be tied down by his responsibility and duty to the nations. After a pause for dialogue, he then pulls on his suit jacket. This is the defining moment for Roan as he once in the past refused to dress up for any interviews. At this point in his job/life, Roan is willing to pull on the garb of the professional, figuratively stating that he is prepared to take on any punches the public or enemy might throw at him by wearing the armor he has learned to forge over the past year.
While that plot may seen unnoticeable to most readers, I find it's the little aspects like this that make a story credible and, in turn, make your main character relatable and realistic.
One of my proudest plot points in this book was showing the steady development of Roan being an at-ease, unpolished soldier and barely leader material into an experienced warrior and a leader willing to step up to the plate and take responsibility for his and his administration's faults.
In addition to the plots and dialogue, this was also demonstrated in a far less obvious way. The novel begins with Arobin first seeing Roan after a four-week separation and, by noting he wore a grey tee and unbuttoned flannel shirt, mentioning how he looked like any other kid off the street. In the first few chapters Roan stuck to wearing his flannel shirt and jeans. However, as both the story and Roan developed, he wore the flannel less and when he did wear it he wore it buttoned up. He occasionally reclaimed it and the comfort it provided by sleeping with a flannel blanket but eventually left behind this blanket as well.
In the final chapter, Roan is seen preparing a statement to the nations. Throughout this scene, Roan struggles to come to terms with the fact that he indeed screwed up as leader. As he reminds himself that one of the best qualities in a leader is the ability to admit fault and claim responsibility, he also slowly puts on the garments of a businessman. He buttons up his collared blue shirt, representing the boy who grew up with a blue-collared job turning into a white-collared professional. He then puts on his tie and ties it up, demonstrating his willingness to be tied down by his responsibility and duty to the nations. After a pause for dialogue, he then pulls on his suit jacket. This is the defining moment for Roan as he once in the past refused to dress up for any interviews. At this point in his job/life, Roan is willing to pull on the garb of the professional, figuratively stating that he is prepared to take on any punches the public or enemy might throw at him by wearing the armor he has learned to forge over the past year.
While that plot may seen unnoticeable to most readers, I find it's the little aspects like this that make a story credible and, in turn, make your main character relatable and realistic.
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Book 5 'Storming
I'm still 60 pages shy of finishing the first round of edits in Book 4 but I'm already coming up with ideas for Book 5. I'm trying to hold off from making too many in-depth plans or putting anything to paper since I need to keep my head in Book 4 but the ideas I do have seem pretty promising.
For Book 4, the question I wanted posed to readers at the end was if Roan had known about BBG's plan at the beginning of the plot would he have done anything to prevent it? This was effectively brought up at the end of Book 4 and I think most readers will have problems answering this, mainly because of the difference between Roan at the beginning of the story and Roan at the end of the plot. Basically, Roan was so transformed by the events that transpired through the plot that he no longer had the boyish innocence he boasted at the beginning of the series. At this point in the books, he is embittered and jaded by the reality of war and the effects resulting from it. He has come to terms with the fact that he is no longer leading a resistance in just one country but is instead the mastermind behind a war where he struggles just to keep his nations alive while soldiers are being targeted behind every corner.
Book 5 is going to be a REALLY tough one to edit. I already ran through it once and rewrote it. The rewrite was actually a merger of two books that didn't have enough plots to stand alone. Aspects were added, characters were removed, some rewritten. Now that I'm revisiting it I realize that the characters I added in are terribly forced and don't fit the overall plot, which means they now must be removed, which means that I basically have to rewrite this story again. Keeping those characters merely provided a substantial arc and I really don't need an arc that large in the series when it will only be ending in two novels.
So I think I'll be removing the Narron/ninja theme in this book and instead replacing it with a plot entirely surrounding the Steppers. I feel like focusing on the Steppers will work so much better and would allow me to keep the second half of the Book 5 rewrite (the part that I really treasure) and also answer readers' questions about the Steppers. They haven't been investigated too deeply despite having their first appearance in Book 1. Book 2, Roan battled a Stepper and also acquired his Stepper captive Arobin. Book 3 has a little more Stepper action but they didn't become a big part of the series until the last book with Roan meeting Arobin's kid brother, Tuck, and learning that the Steppers are being genetically altered.
So I guess Book 5 will be surrounding this idea. I love the Steppers as a part of my writing universe. They are an enigma even I desperately want to know more about. Even my beta readers have requested more background on them. I'll drop a few Stepper names in the coming weeks as the characters become more three-dimensional.
In addition to the Stepper theme, I'm also looking forward to having two romance arcs in this book. Tuck, Arobin's kid brother, will be faced with getting back together with his ex while Roan, yes, our dear Roan Leah, will be meeting his flame. We will also be returning to the Shukara desert (where we haven't extensively traveled since Book 2) and meeting Rand and his beloved Sella, who is due to deliver her firstborn soon.
Since we will be returning to the Shukara it can be expected that there will be some extrinsic themes going on. Book 2 was a fiercely religious novel due to the religion of the extremist Ial and Kadinrail and this book will be dealing with something similar.
Which brings us back to the basic question of the novel. I don't officially have a plot for this book like I said but I do have ideas. One of which will bring our Serpent's Prophecy from Book 1 back to the spotlight as Roan is forced to choose between living as the Serpent from legends or the young man he feels challenged to be. It won't just be Roan who faces this though. Tuck, a couple new characters alongside the Stepper theme, and Roan's own team will be facing the reality of their fate. I guess the initial basic question of this novel is do we all have the freedom to select our own destinies or do we already have fates selected for us by the gods?
For Book 4, the question I wanted posed to readers at the end was if Roan had known about BBG's plan at the beginning of the plot would he have done anything to prevent it? This was effectively brought up at the end of Book 4 and I think most readers will have problems answering this, mainly because of the difference between Roan at the beginning of the story and Roan at the end of the plot. Basically, Roan was so transformed by the events that transpired through the plot that he no longer had the boyish innocence he boasted at the beginning of the series. At this point in the books, he is embittered and jaded by the reality of war and the effects resulting from it. He has come to terms with the fact that he is no longer leading a resistance in just one country but is instead the mastermind behind a war where he struggles just to keep his nations alive while soldiers are being targeted behind every corner.
Book 5 is going to be a REALLY tough one to edit. I already ran through it once and rewrote it. The rewrite was actually a merger of two books that didn't have enough plots to stand alone. Aspects were added, characters were removed, some rewritten. Now that I'm revisiting it I realize that the characters I added in are terribly forced and don't fit the overall plot, which means they now must be removed, which means that I basically have to rewrite this story again. Keeping those characters merely provided a substantial arc and I really don't need an arc that large in the series when it will only be ending in two novels.
So I think I'll be removing the Narron/ninja theme in this book and instead replacing it with a plot entirely surrounding the Steppers. I feel like focusing on the Steppers will work so much better and would allow me to keep the second half of the Book 5 rewrite (the part that I really treasure) and also answer readers' questions about the Steppers. They haven't been investigated too deeply despite having their first appearance in Book 1. Book 2, Roan battled a Stepper and also acquired his Stepper captive Arobin. Book 3 has a little more Stepper action but they didn't become a big part of the series until the last book with Roan meeting Arobin's kid brother, Tuck, and learning that the Steppers are being genetically altered.
So I guess Book 5 will be surrounding this idea. I love the Steppers as a part of my writing universe. They are an enigma even I desperately want to know more about. Even my beta readers have requested more background on them. I'll drop a few Stepper names in the coming weeks as the characters become more three-dimensional.
In addition to the Stepper theme, I'm also looking forward to having two romance arcs in this book. Tuck, Arobin's kid brother, will be faced with getting back together with his ex while Roan, yes, our dear Roan Leah, will be meeting his flame. We will also be returning to the Shukara desert (where we haven't extensively traveled since Book 2) and meeting Rand and his beloved Sella, who is due to deliver her firstborn soon.
Since we will be returning to the Shukara it can be expected that there will be some extrinsic themes going on. Book 2 was a fiercely religious novel due to the religion of the extremist Ial and Kadinrail and this book will be dealing with something similar.
Which brings us back to the basic question of the novel. I don't officially have a plot for this book like I said but I do have ideas. One of which will bring our Serpent's Prophecy from Book 1 back to the spotlight as Roan is forced to choose between living as the Serpent from legends or the young man he feels challenged to be. It won't just be Roan who faces this though. Tuck, a couple new characters alongside the Stepper theme, and Roan's own team will be facing the reality of their fate. I guess the initial basic question of this novel is do we all have the freedom to select our own destinies or do we already have fates selected for us by the gods?
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
Brainstorming
I need to post here more often than just once a week!
I've decided that I'll try to find various aspects of writing, farming, and societal issues to talk about.
Basically, I'll just end up talking about writing just as much as I do now and neglect the other things.
But now that I think about it what are the aspects of writing that need to be addressed?
To the brainstorming lab!!!
I've decided that I'll try to find various aspects of writing, farming, and societal issues to talk about.
Basically, I'll just end up talking about writing just as much as I do now and neglect the other things.
But now that I think about it what are the aspects of writing that need to be addressed?
To the brainstorming lab!!!
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