With a new year's arrival and a long year over, I think it's exciting that I now get to put the past behind me and look to the future. 2009 was a rough year. In retrospect, it seems so much longer than it really was. I went through a long and hard breakup with my closest friend, lost my own ambition to be smart and strong, and nearly fell in a summer of trials. Somehow, I got back on my feet only to be faced with a difficult year at school doubled with a really rough family situation. So much has happened and I look back on last year at this time and I remember the trials and difficulties I had back then and feel as if I was quite the foolish little girl.
I'm no wiser this year than last though. This time in 2011, I'll look back once again and think about the way this year started and feel a sense of mourning and regret. There was so much I lost in 2009 that kept me young and innocent and I know 2010 will be the same. I may lose even more than I lost in 2009 and it may be just as hard to pull through one more year.
Yet, the anxiety I have of the future can't prevent me from going head-on into a year of opportunities. It's the year where I'll be pulling off two jobs, a full-time school year wrapping up my college career, and a year where I will gain a pup as my new friend and family. There's going to be a lot to deal with but there's always the chance for success at the end. Fear won't stop me from enjoying that which I have worked so hard for.
